The CP Diary

As I start today’s blog, my thoughts don’t seem to be heading in any direction. Maybe when I start to type something, my thoughts will.

I know that if something troubles me it’s normally in my mind. I always try and see the positive even when I’m dealing with such negative issues. It helps me look beyond what I see and helps me cope.

I think that part comes from me having so much to work through as a child. I was under the care of the hospital for at least 15 years of my life; then finally discharged when I was twenty-five. I also …

When I was a little girl I used to struggle with bad thoughts, brought about my own insecurities, largely brought about by the influence of others. Now those thoughts have come back, brought about by yet more health problems and my struggle to stay well.

For a few days now I have had a problem with my eye so I made an appointment to see my doctor this morning. I cannot believe I’m having to work through yet another problem.

It has now been confirmed that I have Blepharitis that the doctor thinks is caused by a cyst on the eye-lid and not …

Something inspirational:

“We make a living by what we get, we make a life by what we give.”

WINSTON CHURCHILL

Baked Chicken Curry

We tried this recipe the other day. It was so nice I wanted to share it with you, taken from ‘River Cottage Every Day’ by Hugh Fearnley-Whittingstall.  I am sure you could replace the chicken with beef or lamb and it would still be delicious!

Ingredients:

2 heaped tsp coriander seeds

2 heaped tsp cumin seeds

I’m feeling a little blue today. I’m sure I’m being tested on my health, because I now have a problem with my eye! Not sure what’s wrong with it; but I think it could be a sty.

I seem to be going from one problem to another and it’s beginning to get to me. I have also just found out that my appointment to have my cyst removed is scheduled for the 12^th August, although it could be sooner. That’s something else I will have to deal with, not to mention the fact that I’ll need to work on another recuperation period …

A passing thought:

It’s always tempting to complain about someone or something without doing something about it.

If someone hurts you, or says something unkind, it’s important to speak out. As hard as it is to do, it’s even harder to keep our thoughts to ourselves. All that does is hurt us emotionally until such a time we don’t cope and then have to deal with the problem anyway …

I remember attending prize giving for my daughter many years ago when the headmistress was talking to the girls about constructive criticism. She was trying to impress upon the girls that the harder they worked at something, the more they would achieve.

The headmistress was referring to the girls who perhaps didn’t work as hard as they could have done during the academic year and that if they worked towards change, they could do better in the next academic year.

Her point about constructive criticism resonated with me. I think there is a …

Change is something we all shy away from because it may seem daunting or even scary, but I believe change is necessary. It gives us a different perspective in our life.

From the minute we’re born we physically change. We know it’s the cycle of life, so we’re happy to accept it; but psychologically how many of us find it difficult to accept change?

What is change?

Change is having the ability to be able to move from one situation to another. For some people change is usually brought about by a desire to want to change, but it’s something that we all need to recognise if it is to happen …

A passing thought:

Try saying ”I’m wrong you’re right!”

Being dogmatic or thinking you’re right all the time, can make you both moody and ill tempered and difficult for others to relate to. Why not take a step back and listen to someone else’s opinion, assess all the facts and be big enough to say I got it wrong and you’re right …

How many of us have spent our lives living a life other people expect us live? This means living with dreams and goals that are not ours, but based on what other people expect from us or want for us. Don’t you find it’s human nature for us to want to compare ourselves to other people, but it doesn’t help and can make us feel worse if we’re already struggling …