The CP Diary

Today’s blog is a means for me to let off steam.

I am trying to work out how I really feel. Some days I seem to struggle to make sense of where I am and on other days I feel as though I am in denial. Those are the days I manage not to think about it. Then I come back to reality. I am tired of us having to fight our way through the day with little resolve at the end of it.

The assault has changed our lives. Our lives will never be the same again, just different. I feel helpless because I know Daniel will have to help himself when he’s back …

I believe we need to understand how perceptions work if we are to change how we behave towards others.

Our perceptions usually act as a filter based on our experiences… and are then used to interpret our thoughts on what we see, hear and feel through the conscious mind.

Perceptions usually have an impact on our values, feelings and beliefs, but as we go about our daily lives and we continue to subject ourselves to the different emotional and psychological elements that change how we see our realities in real life, our realities will always …

Something inspirational:

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

LYNNIE BUTTERCUP

My last two blogs on Dyspraxia have taken my thoughts back to my childhood this morning, but the one thing that sticks out in my mind is my exercise routine and how fruitless my exercises were.

It wasn’t even the exercises I was mad at, or the being singled out to do them. What I was frustrated at, was the fact that neither of my parents knew what was wrong with me and deep down all I knew was that the exercises I had been told to do wouldn’t help. I knew that much …

I believe having brain damage together with a family history has contributed to my problems with Dyspraxia and up until recently have only found out that certain members of my extended family have difficulties with left and right and other issues.

I explained a little bit briefly in my last blog CP and Dyspraxia, which is what I believe I have; but certain elements of what I struggle with someone else may not. For example I may struggle with tying laced shoes whilst someone else with Dyspraxia may not.

Although I am okay with knowing that …

Something inspirational:

“There are two primary choices in life: to accept conditions as they exist, or accept the responsibility for changing them.”

DR DENIS WAITLEY

The CP Diary has been a good motivator for me. It has allowed me to understand and equate my life up to this point and hopefully beyond that.

This week I’ve now come face to face with another reality of which I am okay about, but for which my past struggles now seem to fit perfectly. As a consequence of brain damage I believe I have a mild form of Dyspraxia.

Having done countless hours of my own research, I have found out that children with CP have been diagnosed with Dyspraxia and I believe this is what I have been dealing with all these years …

Now that Daniel is beginning to heal from surgery last year; we’ve been looking into the possibility of further procedures.

We have found a Consultant in London who works for one of the top Children’s hospital in the UK. Having gone to London yesterday to see a Consultant, Daniel may now have something positive to work towards, so that he can finally put the last 18 months behind him.  At last we have a resolution to work towards.

I still cannot believe we’re in this place and this is what we’re working through. I tend to reconcile …

Angel thoughts:

“Generally speaking, I simply ASSUME that the best is always happening in my life; whether it’s enough money, a comfortable and nurturing place to live, whatever. In this same line of thinking, I see myself protected and guided by a squadron of guardian angels; so I seem to KNOW when it’s time to let go of a situation because it’s not good for me, and when to embark on a path that is right.”

Each and every one of us is an individual and as such we’ll grow up differently depending on how we’ve been parented in our childhoods.

As a child, I was never encouraged to make choices about my life or where I wanted my life to go, so I didn’t have a chance to grow up emotionally and although I was holding down a job from the age of 18, I didn’t feel ready to take on the world …