The CP Diary

This blog is very apt today because it matches my unhappy mood. Do we really know how to be happy, or is it something we fleetingly come in and out of?

It’s not always easy to say what does or doesn’t make us happy. I think it’s different for all of us. It could be that what we predict for ourselves plays a part or will begin to influence the decisions we go on to make. We need to be able to anticipate our own feelings so that we begin to know what really makes us happy.

Unfortunately emotions aren’t an exact science …

As a child I was a people pleaser. I used to go out of my way to please everyone. I suppose looking back, subconsciously I was looking for acceptance; it was me.

It’s what it was at the time, but in hindsight I can see that it didn’t do me any favours. When we work to fit our time into what others ask of us, I believe people will always take advantage or manipulate our kindness because they can.

What starts off as a kind gesture on our part, becomes a habit because others know we’ll never say no …

Something inspirational:

“There’s a difference between interest and commitment. When you’re interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstance permit. When you’re committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results.”

UNKNOWN

Happy people have low moods, disappointments and problems just the same as people who have unhappy dispositions; the only difference is that happy people will adapt more easily so that they deal with their disappointments and low moods swiftly and with good grace.

You only have to observe happy people to see how relaxed and calm they are. They have a relaxed and calm demeanour about them, regardless of what they’re dealing with …

I believe we mustn’t feel guilty about decisions we make if it means we support our own emotional well-being. This is so true of relationships. There seems to be an element of guilt that ties us in to those relationships. We think that we will somehow be judged for coming out, but from what I know and from my own spiritual beliefs it really doesn’t work that way.

In my opinion it is better to come out, than it is to stay with someone who is perhaps making our life difficult …

How many of us go with decisions that have been made that we may not agree with but have no choice but to agree?

This seems to be the pattern for me and has been for all of my adult life. In terms of pain and suffering I know that my decision for my father not to have treatment would be the best decision and in my father’s best interest, but another situation has now arisen where the path my father chose to go down no longer exists.

When we my mother was first diagnosed with lung cancer, she made her own decisions on her choice of therapies …

Something inspirational:

“Be strong. Be hopeful. Seize the day boldly and shape it to your own ends and never be surprised if it sprouts a hundred different obstacles for you to overcome. Your treasure will never be given to you. You must know yourself, stay true to yourself and wrest your destiny from the grasp of life.”

AUTHOR UNKNOWN

Something to ponder:

“Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.”

UNKNOWN

Being terminally ill is never easy for the one who is ill, or the family dealing with their loved one being terminally ill; my situation is testament to that. Last weekend was tough for us all. I’m slightly tired and although I am okay mentally with what’s happening, keeping up with it all can be tiring.

It’s important to spend as much time with someone who is terminally ill, but I have chosen to focus on both because that’s important too. It would be easy for me to spend every waking moment in the hospital, but my family and I are choosing …

Something to ponder:

“This is an important lesson to remember when you’re having a bad day, a bad month, or a shitty year. Things will change: you won’t feel this way forever. And anyway, sometimes the hardest lessons to learn are the ones your soul needs most. I believe you can’t feel real joy unless you’ve felt heartache …