Archive | December, 2013

Giving ourselves control

31 Dec

I’m not sure how long I was in counseling before I decided to come out of it. I had got to the stage where something just wasn’t working for me. The tools I needed to help me deal with my issues weren’t happening, so talking didn’t help. To some extent talking made me made me more frustrated. After years of counseling and much soul searching, I came to realise it was up to me to help myself.

I think it’s true that no matter how good we are or how helpful we are we cannot put something right for someone else …

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Making excuses

30 Dec

Excuses are reasons we personally create to defend the way we behave, to avoid taking action on something we should be dealing with. Excuses are simply a means of negating responsibility. The way I see it is, we can either continue to make excuses or we can put things right and get our lives back on track. We’d rather talk ourselves into making excuses …

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A quote by Rumi

29 Dec

Something inspirational:

“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.”


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The Sunday blues

28 Dec

I don’t know whether anyone else has memory of the Sunday evening blues, but it seemed very real to me, when I was little. At the time I never understood why by Sunday evening I was beginning to feel so miserable. After initial research, I have found out it’s a combination of the weekend coming to an end with the anticipation of 5 days of pressure  …

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My last thought on this

27 Dec

The Queen’s speech on Christmas Day was about how we reflect on our lives and reflection has brought me to this place. I am where I am because of consequences of the decisions made for me, rather than by me. I’ve been swept along and have been expected to conform completely …

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A Christmas poem

26 Dec

Something inspirational:

“Christmas is not in tinsel and lights and outward show. The secret lies in an inner glow. It’s lighting a fire inside the heart. Good will and joy a vital part. It’s higher thought and a greater plan. It’s glorious dream in the soul of man.”

WILFRED A. PETERSON (The Art of Living)

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Merry Christmas

25 Dec

Thank you to everyone who has supported The CP Diary site and my Facebook page over the year. Thank you also to everyone who has read my blogs. Without all of your love and support The CP Diary wouldn’t be the success it is. I hope you ALL have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

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My perspective on loss

24 Dec

Never having had any concrete support, I wasn’t sure how I would feel when it came to losing both parents.

As the weeks passed, I began to ask myself whether it had been easier for me to let go of losing both parents because there had never been any emotional support in place. The answer that came back …

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Inner conflict

23 Dec

We have a bad day, not always because someone else is irritating us, but because we feel bad about ourselves. The feelings we have that arise out of conflict are not just symptoms of that conflict, but are tied to unconscious thoughts that continue to block our awareness of the bigger picture. If we were to unravel what goes on behind our unconscious thoughts …

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Christmas gingerbread

22 Dec

Christmas Gingerbread

Another festive treat!



100g butter

100g dark brown sugar …

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