The CP Diary

Something inspirational:

“Be strong. Be hopeful. Seize the day boldly and shape it to your own ends and never be surprised if it sprouts a hundred different obstacles for you to overcome. Your treasure will never be given to you. You must know yourself, stay true to yourself and wrest your destiny from the grasp of life.”

AUTHOR UNKNOWN

Something to ponder:

“Don’t fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.”

UNKNOWN

Being terminally ill is never easy for the one who is ill, or the family dealing with their loved one being terminally ill; my situation is testament to that. Last weekend was tough for us all. I’m slightly tired and although I am okay mentally with what’s happening, keeping up with it all can be tiring.

It’s important to spend as much time with someone who is terminally ill, but I have chosen to focus on both because that’s important too. It would be easy for me to spend every waking moment in the hospital, but my family and I are choosing …

Something to ponder:

“This is an important lesson to remember when you’re having a bad day, a bad month, or a shitty year. Things will change: you won’t feel this way forever. And anyway, sometimes the hardest lessons to learn are the ones your soul needs most. I believe you can’t feel real joy unless you’ve felt heartache …

It’s been a very long day. I have so many thoughts, which seem to be jumbled tonight. I’m indifferent, calm and VERY tired.

There comes a time in every one’s life when we reflect back on our relationships and it usually happens around the time we know some one we love dearly is terminally ill. It’s so hard watching that someone fade-away. We all have our ups and downs but without the ups or downs I believe we would have no meaningful relationship. Relationships are about expression; we have to be able to express ourselves.

It would be so easy to look back and pick fault or feel guilty about something we’ve done or said to someone terminally ill, but I believe that is unhelpful and counterproductive …

I am sure you will all be aware from my recent posts that my father is in hospital, shortly to go into a hospice. I will be spending time with family over the next few days, but will still be posting daily and will be on email from time to time.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank you for continuing to support The CP Diary. Things will be back to normal shortly. I will be thinking of you all.

I’m taking a few moments to reflect on my day and although I’m upset about the outcome, I am doing okay.

As a child I lived in fear of the reality that my parents would one day not be around me anymore; but back then I didn’t have the knowledge and the beliefs that I do today. My mother passed away what will be 5 years on the 25^th May this year. I have always believed that she will go to spirit, but will still be around me as I live my life and make my choices and I believe my father is now getting ready to do the same.

The last five years have been the most difficult years. I have blogged on here about the problems I’ve faced …

Something inspirational:

“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”

HARRIET BEECHER STOWE

In my late twenties I remember being put on antidepressants by my doctor when I was depressed.

In hindsight it wasn’t the best time or the best idea because I believe that as we begin to rely on tablets to help us cope, those tablets potentially can become habit forming. The reality is that we become more reliant, and so the habit becomes even harder to break. I was lucky enough that at the time my depression wasn’t bad enough to stay on them long term.

We tend to rely on what we know works so that we’re best able to cope. For example …

Something inspirational:

“Everybody can be great because anybody can serve. You don’t have to have a college degree to serve. You don’t have to make your subject and verb agree to serve. You only need a heart full of grace. A soul generated by love.”

MARTIN LUTHER KING JR.