Looking through and going back to read some of my earlier blogs, I didn’t realise how damaged my emotions were at the time I set up and started writing blogs for The CP Diary.
When I look back on those blogs, there seems to be a theme running through them. They highlight real issues around neglect, which I wasn’t consciously aware of. That’s the thing about our experiences that where we think we’re not affected, we clearly are.
The pattern of how I blog and what goes into each of my blogs reflects my experiences at that time, my thoughts and feelings on how I see those experiences, how I see myself and what I had to deal with at that time and where I was emotionally. Each blog, although different were very similar and seemed to follow on from one another.
It’s the first thing that struck me when I looked back at my blogs. Four years on and the theme changed. I wasn’t so hung up on my earlier thoughts, I felt better in myself. My writing changed. I felt more emotionally free. I wasn’t holding on to all the old thoughts that were constantly weighing me down. I was feeling less emotionally challenged.
My writing style is now more mature. Although the focus is still on my many experiences, because it is my blog, the focus is now less on me and more on the way I see life on old and new experiences.
What each of my blogs have is a subtle message of what to look for and how we can change.