It’s true that our formative years don’t always prepare us for the life we have yet to come, particularly if we haven’t had the support, but through maturity and emotional growth, I believe we can adapt.
My sensory issues (“SPD”) are part of the equation and compound my problem. Some of the bigger issues, which would seem pretty straightforward to someone else, blow up ten fold and make what I deal with look and feel bigger. It’s easy for me to become overwhelmed and totally unprepared.
When it comes to the smaller more mundane every day issues I’m fine, but through SPD, the bigger issues can exacerbate and change how I see and interpret the world and that makes what I deal with scary. Depending on what the issue is, the issue can leave me feeling panicked, particularly if there is little or no resolve.
Even though the issue may not seem to bother me during the day, if something is lurking about in my subconscious, it can wake me, overwhelm me and it won’t go until I deal with it. As a child, I struggled to deal with bad thoughts.
Looking back on those times, I can now see that my sensory issues were always part of that equation and although that’s not something I can change, I am beginning to understand a little more now.