There always seems to be something that takes precedent over other things that I want to write on the site, but this issue is on my mind today.
This is by far the hardest journal I have had to write. In my story ‘About Me’ I briefly touched on the problems with my handwriting, equating some of those problems to my father standing behind me as I walked as a child, but last year my Neurologist confirmed that scar tissue contributes to problems with my handwriting.
We all have insecurities, but for me this isn’t one I seem to be able to remedy quickly or easily enough. My physical appearance doesn’t say Cerebral Palsy, although I know that’s what I have, so others I am in contact with have no idea of my struggles, yet simply filling in a form is hard.
It’s not like a broken leg where everyone can see the broken leg. I have lived with this issue for so long that it will take longer to sort out. To keep it a secret doesn’t help. But hopefully it will show other people that we all have something we struggle with and although this problem is unique to me, others have things that they struggle with that is unique to them. We can’t assume.
This is something I know I need to deal with. I am not sure how much of my problem has been equated to my father and how much is down to scarring. All I know is that I have difficulty with it.