As a child growing up with numerous problems, I would periodically look over my shoulder at others and remember unconsciously feeling envy at their ‘normal’ life and what I was struggling with.
Inwardly, I was never hateful but know that my own personal circumstances had a lot to do with how I felt about myself and what I was going through at the time to make me look outside of my own circumstances.
I was grounded enough never to lose understanding of my circumstances and that saved me from torturing myself further. The bad part is that because I’d got myself into a pattern of looking over my shoulder at what others had, it took me a while to snap out of it, but the good part is that as I got older and understood why, it made it easier for me to stop.
Looking back now, being so young meant I didn’t have the maturity or confidence to believe in myself. I had a lot to work through. Seeing what I have achieved with my writing through my site, means I have very much made a success of myself.
But it’s easy to see why people lose sight of their own potential from time to time and look to others instead. We only have to look, see or open a newspaper to understand why that may be the case.