Finding closure again

I was given another opportunity on my Cerebral Palsy journey to see another Neurologist, to try to find out a little more on what I deal with and although the consultation wasn’t successful, I came away with many positive thoughts.

I went in to see the Neurologist with no preconceived ideas, but was hoping that he could shed some light on some of my symptoms. I wanted to be given another chance to work through some of my symptoms, so that I could finally equate my symptoms with my daily experiences.

Unfortunately, he already had notes from my doctor in front of him from previous correspondence, which made it slightly more difficult to work through and therefore, I came out with little more than I walked in with, except I now have a clearer understanding of which part of my brain is damaged and which parts of my body this accords with.

He also went on to explain why my leg is worse than my arm and explained in more detail which part of the brain was responsible for that. I should be able to bring closure, because it’s closure as far as I can go.

I am happy to be told that it’s not possible to be certain, which of my daily symptoms are attributable to my Cerebral Palsy or to me having been born prematurely, because if that is what it is, that’s what it is.

The Neurologist thought that CBT would help with brain fatigue. I think the consultant had difficulty understanding that even though I don’t have answers I can still bring closure.

I can move on more positively, because for now I’ve come as far as I can.


23 Sep, 2011

4 thoughts on “Finding closure again

  1. Even if the appointment didn’t go too well, I’m glad you got a few answers and you can bring about closure.

    I think there will always be questions and if new symptoms arise will it be related to CP or something else. Only time will tell.

    You do deserve some peace and it seems like you may have some now. I’m happy for you.

    1. Thanks Lisa. I have one or two more answers on my brain function and how that works around my physical symptoms, but that’s it.

      You are completely right in what you say, there would always be questions with new symptoms that may arise as I age, but for now I’m happy to let it go. I can go no further. I’ve done all I can.

      That’s probably why I am okay with bringing closure.

  2. As unsatisfactory as the consultation went, I do believe that you can use this to help bring closure and that will be a big help.

    You deserved better, but I really don’t think there is the help out there.

    1. I totally agree with you.

      This is such a harsh reality for me. Forty eight years on, I am still not that much better off; but you are right I can use this experience to bring about closure and will.

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