There is no doubt in my mind that any negative issues I deal with, reinforce my own insecurities about certain aspects of my past.
I believe the energy that circulates in my own family because of what we’re dealing with now, is presenting more negativity, which has a knock-on and reinforce my own issues from childhood about my Cerebral Palsy and having no emotional support.
I also believe that subconsciously I am holding on to thoughts that reinforce my beliefs as far back as a child. I see the issues clearly, manage to deal with those positively, but I also see my past negative issues. I am lucky they don’t interfere with me making positive decisions, but they do reinforce my past negativity, on some of the things I had to deal with.
I need to create and be responsible for my own happiness, instead of subconsciously always seeing my past as something that was negative. I believe the negativity surrounding my Cerebral Palsy and childhood is the reason why I still have those negative thoughts. My condition as a child was never embraced or spoken about, so I never learned to embrace it. I need to do that now.
I need to develop the ability to work things out for myself, resolve past issues so they aren’t reinforced every time I have to deal with something in my life now that turns out to be negative.