For many years, I lived with guilty feelings from lifelong regrets that left me in a less than happy place. Each day felt like a new battle.
Every way I turned my disappointments continued to stare back at me. I couldn’t rid myself of the guilt that was constantly clouding my judgment, but as I slowly embarked on my spiritual journey, things began to change. My inner beliefs helped me see that my guilt had nothing to do with me.
I began to understand that a lifetime of my regrets had everything to do with the control and the decisions that were made for me. I had never made a decision for myself or been given a choice to go down road A or road B. Unfortunately, any guilt or regrets we carry regardless of who’s guilt, will keep us stuck in the past; written into our own history books, the books we cannot change.
Although it took many years to get to that stage, it eventually felt like a release. I had done a lot of soul searching up to that point. It was time to change. As my outlook began to change so did my life. I slowly started to change some of the things that we’re keeping me emotionally stuck.
It was made easier because I knew my regrets never belonged to me in the first place; but I still had to let them go. When I started to make my own choices, those choices were right. It’s easy for us to look back and see a life of regrets. That’s the hard part of living, the mind plays tricks on us. Where we think we’re okay, we’re not when we play back the tapes.
I see my decisions as a stepping-stone to yet more change and yet more lessons for me to learn. As I evolve and grow spiritually, I rely on my intuition (my own guiding light) to help me pave the way on my decisions so that I have no more regrets.