As children, we live in fear of the reality that one day our parents will no longer be around anymore. I was always aware that the bubble one day would burst. But then children don’t have the knowledge that adults have. Losing a parent seems scary when you’re a child.
My mother passed away what will be 5 years on the 25th May this year. I have always believed that she will go to spirit but will still be around me as I live my life and make my decisions. I believe that my father is now getting ready to do the same. The last five years have been the most difficult.
My father’s health has finally taken its toll and he will soon start his own spiritual journey. I cannot believe we’re at this place where decisions need to be made for him to live out his final weeks peacefully. It doesn’t seem real. I am not afraid to lose him, but what is quite scary is watching him fade away.
I have never been good around illness. I’ve always shied away from it since I was a little girl. Having Sensory Processing Disorder issues will reinforce seeing my father fade away.
I’ll just have to muddle though, the best I can.