Having gone out last weekend feeling well and coming back feeling poorly, brings home the health issues I’m dealing with. I cope with that but what bothers me more is the fact that having had no opportunities to do anything as a child, means that now I’m also in the same position, because I have my health to think about first, which comes between me and any would be opportunities. Even thinking about doing something can affect my physical health. Preparation takes energy and energy puts pressure on my health, which I already struggle with. I am determined to take a two day break next weekend. That will be a testing time, but I hope I’m up to it.