More of the same

The house is quiet and I have more time to chill today. I love having and being in my own space.

Although some things are working out, other things aren’t. My father is back on chemotherapy where he should have taken a break, so that’s more potential stress for us to deal with. Cancer is a tough one because there are no guarantees as to what the outcome will be.

I’m not building myself up either to believe that he’ll be okay, because I have no idea whether that will happen and I don’t want to fall flat if it doesn’t happen that way. Unfortunately, as we all hold on to hope, it doesn’t stop others trying to build other people’s hopes up that things will work out.

I think it’s all to do with our own insecurities. We tend not to want to let go of what could be the inevitable. I tend to go with what will be will be. As I quietly contemplate hope, I am also realistic that it may not happen that way.

I go back to the same thoughts that I cannot change someone’s path if it’s not meant to be changed. No one wants to let go of a parent.I am sure all families live in hope that their loved ones will survive. It’s a part of life.

We tend to cling to hope until we can cling no more.


8 Jul, 2012

4 thoughts on “More of the same

  1. I know how you’re feeling as I’ve been down the same road with my father and my mother. I just hang in there and still have hope for my mom because she is still young and such a strong woman.

    My father gave up after the first chemo therapy treatments didn’t work. He never tried anything else. My father was a worrier and had high blood pressure from it. I should learn from him!

    We should all learn from our parents, that’s what they are there for to teach us about life, but I realize not all parents have it together enough to teach their kids. Sorry I got off topic!!

    I hope things work out for you for the best for everyone.

    1. That’s fine Lisa, no problem. I believe things will work out the way they are supposed to go. We’ll just have to wait and see. Thank you.

  2. My wife has been battling cancer for quite some time now and we just try to enjoy the time we have and don’t try to project the future.

    Death is inevitable for all of us. It’s just a matter of time, so I like you have come to terms with just accepting. It calms the soul to do so.

    1. I agree with you. Finding a form of acceptance not only helps us cope with what we deal with, as you say Brian it calms us down too. It helps even more if we all work the same way.

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