My Autism symptoms

I’ve had a lot on my mind recently since looking through my medical notes again and discovering my father ignored my problems through our many consultants’ visits. There was never a problem.

It’s vital for any Specialist to be informed about the child they’re treating, when they ask about the difficulties that child experiences. Had the Specialist been informed, he will have come to understand that some of my behaviour traits fitted exactly into the Autism spectrum.

A lot of my symptoms were overlooked because the interest from my father simply wasn’t there. Cerebral Palsy isn’t just about Cerebral Palsy. Through the brain injury it can include many other disorders such as Autism and Asperger.

Children with autism may struggle with the following:

  • Verbal and nonverbal Communication;
  • Repetitive Behaviours or Interests;
  • Social Interaction including the way they relate to others.

Children and infants who deal with autism, or infants don’t cuddle. They tend to avoid eye contact, don’t need or  like physical affection or contact. They show little interest in human contact and when held they may go rigid or limp, as a sign to go down. Children with autism will also struggle to form attachments.

As a child, I was like that, both distant and aloof. Looking back, I didn’t know why I had unusual traits, but my family thought it was just me; that it was who I was, rather than what I was dealing with. Children with autism also show unusual responses to sensory experiences, such as the way objects look or certain sounds.

Their routine is slightly regimented, their behaviour repetitive. Things tend to have been done a certain way. That sadly is me. Although symptoms will differ in each child exhibiting autism, one size diagnosis doesn’t fit all.

Symptoms usually range from mild to severe and will be different for each child. Looking back my behaviour traits fitted perfectly. All children with autism display social, behavioural and social patterns that are individual to them, but fit into the overall diagnosis of autism.

I find it both irritating and sad that I am still having to work all my presenting symptoms out. This should have all be done for me as a child.


3 Dec, 2017

4 thoughts on “My Autism symptoms

  1. Yes, it is very irritating and sad when you look back on your medical history and realize that you needed help, which neither of us ever got.

    There was no way that my parents couldn’t have known what my issues were, but they were always so much more concerned about what it would cost for treatment.

    I still can’t figure out why it was that they were so worried, since I’m sure we had health insurance through the state, seeing as we always seemed to get things like food stamps.

    I’m sure that your life would have been so much different too, if you had received the proper care and had been told that it wasn’t just you.

    Even though autism wasn’t well known back then, something would have been better than nothing as far as treatment, which they deprived you of.

    1. Thanks Randy. Yes, we’re here again with our tale of woes and although that’s not okay, in a way it has to be because it’s where we are.

      I have learned a different way to be now through my own understanding and agree with you wholeheartedly. I would never condone a parents bad behaviour in this way.

      As my mum used to say we don’t go to school to be a parent and that’s a cop out, but there is some truth in the saying, ‘that we parent as we’ve been parented, which is true in our case.

      In terms of my Autism, to be honest; it was odd, but never bad enough to warrant that kind of help, but in school I definitely needed help with learning, which I never got.

      All we can do is work on ourselves and continue to correct things for our own children. The past has gone, I don’t really want to dwell.

  2. As a child, you behaved that way because you smelled everybody’s rottenness, to be blunt. That something was wrong the way it was being handled, sadly.

    But in helplessness, you still made it to the light.

    1. Awe thanks Tim. Yes… I just never gave up. That if we believe for long enough our circumstances will change.

      But we must be instrumental and focused on those beliefs. It’s not enough to just sit back and wait without being focused on how things might change.

      When we just sit back, we’ll inevitably miss the opportunities when they arise. We have to be looking in the right direction.

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