This blog is yet another piece to the jigsaw on my disability and a lot of workings out. I am more emotionally disabled than I am physically, due to the nature of the damage to my Cerebral Cortex.
The Cerebral Cortex controls both motor function and emotions and in my case my motors skills and physical disability are relatively minor, but the main issues revolve around my inability to physically feel.
When it comes to any disability, there is no easy way to deal with it. Where one person struggles, another person with similar symptoms may not, but our perceptions and the nature of having a disability is hard. I don’t think one element is harder than another, just different, with the different issues we have to deal with.
I talk about my intuition a lot, because that has become my compensatory tool. I use my intuition to talk about my emotions and to anticipate how others might feel. I use my intuition to read other people’s emotions and manage my thoughts constructively. I say thoughts, rather than feelings, because that is what they are. They’re just thoughts. I don’t feel those thoughts.
To feel is to physically feel and all that physically feeling entails, but the damage to my Cerebral Cortex is too extensive for me to emotionally feel. Sadly, they don’t. Another problem for those like me with emotional difficulties, is that it’s easy to stay locked away in our own little world. Luckily, my intuition acts as my guide, so I don’t have.
I continually choose to adapt, to try to find acceptance on everything I deal with all that is documented on my blog. Emotionally, life becomes harder for me when I don’t.
I’ve still got to fit into my life, as others must continually try to fit into mine, even with my constraints. I can’t change that.