On the days I still struggle to come to terms with the enormity of my neglect over the years, I need to start looking at my experiences in another way.
I need to be able to understand why I’m now doing what I’m doing and what brought me to this place. The universe decided that my role was to help and that I had to go through those experiences. I was chosen to have Cerebral Palsy as the universe believed I was strong enough to cope.
It doesn’t take away the initial problems of course of how I got to this place, or everyone’s role in my life around my physical and emotional difficulties, but it does go some way to explain my experiences to this point. My thoughts and feelings are what makes me who I am.
I believe this is something I need to keep reinforcing, so I give myself a different more positive perspective on my experiences. The CP Diary has become my journey, my path, my life’s work and now for others too, to be able to repeat for themselves, the need for change and self-awareness I talk about in my blogs.