My not so good thoughts are back today. I am usually strong, but then I have my moments of losing clarity, feelings of despondency, feeling lost and feelings of isolation.
Something was said that holds true in my thoughts and has only just registered with me. Living with Cerebral Palsy means that my brain doesn’t automatically engage when it should. Where others don’t have to think because their brain thinks for them, I am aware that my brain doesn’t automatically think.
Because my brain doesn’t think, it doesn’t engage or is it able to think on its own. I know that I will always struggle to some degree emotionally and physically. I struggle because I don’t see things.
My spacial awareness is poor. Bumping into things, falling down the stairs is what I have to deal with. I think I need to talk myself through things, where I know my brain can’t think for itself.