I believe life is made up of pictures pertaining to memories of past experiences. If I were to look at my own pictures, it would be easy for me to spiral down into days and months of negativity and that’s simply why I choose not to look back.
My present circumstances are also a reflection and mirrors my past of how I got to this place. Of course I understand the bigger picture of why, but even the bigger picture doesn’t help my thoughts on how given my parentage, coupled with a very negative past, I wasn’t able to change things, even when I tried. But maybe that’s why. Certain things aren’t meant to change.
I know that as issues from my past continue to reoccur, I may never be completely settled but I choose not to give up on my understanding. As with all things, it is our understanding that will help us bring acceptance.