My mood seems to have gone downhill. I know what has triggered the problem but cannot seem to resolve it. I’m in a no-win situation.
I have talked about the prospect of moving away and that’s still on the cards. I have never had opportunities to go out into the world and experience for myself what my children are now benefiting from, that just wasn’t my life.
The question I have though is when does a parent stop being a parent? Or when does a parent start being a parent? I am sure there are many of us out there who are in this kind of predicament. When might a parent choose not to concern themselves with being a parent?
It’s funny because I am totally the opposite. I have always based my relationship with my children on honesty, openness and mutual respect. It’s been a tough week. I’m not sure how things will get easier, I’ve struggled for what seems a lifetime, but emotionally I need to resolve these issues.
I suspect things will be back to wreak havoc again, but I’m feeling strong today. I’m going to have to make sure that continues.