One of the choices I made, back in the days when I considered myself to be naïve, I am now dealing with again.
Having been to the hospital yesterday, it has now been confirmed that what I thought was swelling around a skin tag left from surgery, is a cyst that needs to be removed again. I cannot do that of course until the swelling goes down, but it clearly shows that the cyst, which was supposed to have been removed 10 years ago wasn’t removed properly.
My Doctor who had minor surgery experience did the procedure, but in hindsight perhaps I should have gone to the hospital to have it removed. I was told by the practice that my doctor could do the same job so I opted to have it done in the practice. I should have gone with my gut.
There’s no point in dwelling now, but a specialist would have removed it completely. If only I hadn’t been so naïve. I have talked about my resilience and my patience being tested, I truly believe this is the process.
The swelling is in an awkward place and is taking too long to heal. The removal of the cyst will just be as awkward, which will be my biggest test yet and as strong as I am emotionally, the thought of what lies ahead is scaring me.
A date has been provisionally set for a week on Friday. I finish my antibiotics next Tuesday, so decisions will be made then as to whether surgery goes ahead. I am not convinced at this moment it will happen.
I’m working on my emotions right now. That’s taking time, but I must have confidence that I will achieve it.