We’re born with a loving, caring and happy soul, but as we live and experience life those experiences make up and form our personalities.
Those personalities are then used to communicate with other people and it is from those personalities that bad patterns are formed. We’re all capable of changing how we perceive ourselves and other people. The trouble is that we’re often too busy trying to work on our own survival that we don’t look beyond our opinions and attitudes to what lies within us.
All too often our attitudes, opinions and approaches build up to what people see on the outside and that is what we show family, friends and the world. What we should be doing is working from the outside in so that what people see on the inside is what they see on the outside.
I was angry for most of my childhood and formative years living with Cerebral Palsy, but inside of me, there was always something that was different about me that was different to my other siblings, which others rarely saw. Every now and again my soft side would come out, I’d be sweet and caring and my family would get to see that different side of me.
It’s taken a long time for me to unwrap the sweet caring side of me. I know I was quite a challenge for my family and I get that, but looking back none of them took the time to understood what was going on with me. It’s sad they didn’t see that but after years of working on myself, I have finally learned how to be me, so that I am all the things I was born with.
The CP Diary is testament to all that I am and all that I was back then, underneath all the anger.