New opportunities

15 Apr 2017

I’ve previously written a blog about the fact that our lives are mapped out from the minute we’re born. But even so, it’s important to understand that through our lives, we will come across opportunities that will be obvious to those of us who are adept at reading between the lines, but for those of us who aren’t, it doesn’t mean we can’t learn.

Until something happens to change our course, our life is mapped out. We follow a path set out for us, in some cases without being able to digress. We’re also not expected to argue or fall foul of those intentions, but we may choose to resist. We never move away from resisting.

It’s often something that’s said that wouldn’t have been obvious to anyone else, but it triggers a thought process in us. Something that changes a thought, the course of events and a changed life forever. In my own case, I didn’t know at that time what my physical and emotional issues were, but it was at that point when my journey began.

A conversation about a difficult birth with my mum spelt out a new beginning for me. It was my time to find out. I wasn’t done. I then began the process of looking for a diagnosis and The CP Diary was then born. And that’s my point, our life can change in a split second and that’s all it may take.

Yes, our life starts one way, continues throughout our formative years with a family who either support, or fail to support, but it’s looking out for and being aware of those opportunities that allow us to dictate a new path so that we can eventually change course.

If it hadn’t been for that moment, the opportunity and a conversation, I would have had to have waited for a new opportunity to find out. I was determined not to give up. I was determined to find out. Yes, just never give up.

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  1. Brad 15. Apr, 2017 at 7:10 pm #

    While I believe our destiny is predetermined, I also believe we can change that as you have shown us and continue to show us.

    • Ilana 15. Apr, 2017 at 7:14 pm #

      Where I can I will… thank you.

  2. Randy 16. Apr, 2017 at 12:33 pm #

    Yes, it doesn’t take a lot for a chance to come up to change our whole lives. There were many different directions that my life could have taken, but I always felt so powerless to make any changes and that my life was always going to suck.

    Life isn’t always fair, as in you and my daughter ending up with Cerebral Palsy, which I haven’t been able to accept seeing as I would have traded places with her in a heartbeat. It wouldn’t have bothered me as much, since I was used to getting the shaft from life, but she didn’t deserve to have that put upon her.

    Somehow instinctively, I knew what needed to be done to help her out which was something I should have kept up with. I allowed the guilt, shame and remorse of my past to cloud my vision and she was the one who suffered the most because of my weaknesses.

    She doesn’t know about a lot of the things I have been through that drove me to the point of madness and beyond which is a good thing. The down side is that she doesn’t really know who I am, seeing as I have a hard time distinguishing between what was mine and what was thrust upon me, by parents who shouldn’t have ever had children.

    She never cared much for my parents which should have told me a lot, seeing as she’s an empath just like me. She has always been a very sweet and sensitive girl, which people didn’t know because they couldn’t look past her Cerebral Palsy to get to really know her, which is very sad.

    The opportunity I have now is to share what I know with her, without allowing her mother’s influence to cloud her judgement. The hardest part for me is to make that journey in spite of my agoraphobia, seeing as she needs to be shown what opportunities she could have if she just stepped out of her mother’s world for the first time in her life. I’m hoping for the best!

    • Ilana 16. Apr, 2017 at 1:52 pm #

      Thanks Randy. Yes, a disability isn’t easy, but how we’re born has nothing to do with anything other than a freak of nature, or an accident at birth.

      Of course the more disabled we are, the less of an opportunity we will have to change through an opportunity, but opportunities still count. I’m just not sure we’re totally equipped with an understanding on how the universe works and how if we work to the laws of the Universe we can change our path.

      As my case has shown with The CP Diary, in my formative years, I never imagined this would be my life, but the more we believe and the more we wish, the more these changes can and will happen.

      It just takes one event, an opportunity arising at a specific moment for us to see and understand our lives enough to change our life, but we must also follow the universe’s teaching. That’s how we know.

      Although your daughter cannot change her disability, she can change other aspects, but she has to either prepare herself for the inevitable when her mum will no longer be around, or choose to walk away and carve a different life out for herself now, with your help if that’s the only way she can do it on her own.

      It’s all about seizing the opportunity, when it arises. In my case I knew I had no choice but to wait, but in the meantime, I never stopped believing that my life would change. When the opportunity arose I was fully prepared.

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