Archive | June, 2010

Watch this space

30 Jun

I manage and live with Cerebral Palsy, but I also know I have to have good health, because good health is so important for me to manage Cerebral Palsy on a day-to-day basis.

When I started The CP Diary I had no ideas about what I was going to write about or what would work best on the site.  All I knew is that I had been recently diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy and …

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Healing conflict from within

29 Jun

As a child I was witness to a lot of conflict. Disagreements between my parents happened most frequently, although I never really understood conflict back then.

The stronger we are, the more we are capable of handling conflict without having to cut ties. I believe we walk away from conflict as we are afraid to deeply look within ourselves. Living with Cerebral Palsy as a child, meant that I had more of my own internal conflict to deal with …

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Venting

28 Jun

I’m having one of those days that I know I have to work through. I’m playing catch up and waiting for phone calls that seem to be taking forever.

My life would be easier if people who said they’d ring back did. It’s just so frustrating. No doubt this afternoon I’ll have to chase. I’m probably looking at some other issues but not sure what …

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Opinions but the wrong ones

27 Jun

This journal isn’t intended at anyone in particular, it’s not my way, but as a child I was never taught to have an opinion and so consequently never expressed one.

I sometimes wonder why the world has opinions about everyone and everything and why those opinions then become part of our everyday lives with what we deal with. I think it makes …

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Count every small luxury

26 Jun

The next time you take a bath, enjoy the water, notice the lovely colours of the bubble bath, savour the peace and tranquility and just take in how much you feel you have accomplished in your day. Instead of taking the small things in your life for granted, take time to notice …

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I’ll be back tomorrow

25 Jun

I’ll be back on the site tomorrow. Please feel free to respond on any of my journals. Not feeling on top of the world today.

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Lessening the impact

24 Jun

In the 1960’s when I was born, the situation for children with disabilities was very different. Parents didn’t always know how to deal with their disabled child.

There was also a stigma behind disability and rather than embrace the problem, those children were considered outcasts. Parents were often embarrassed about their children and what other parents …

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Evaluating my life

23 Jun

I think the realisation that I could have researched my birth notes many years ago, has left me with a lot of uncertainty, a closing door that could have given me the answers and acceptance or closure on my Cerebral Palsy.

I cannot change what is, I cannot change what could have been, I can only go forward and redress the balance on where I go from here. A year ago I had an MRI scan, I got a diagnosis. I also know …

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Emptiness

22 Jun

I’m writing this blog because it will not only help me, but will help others with what they have to deal with, when they cannot see a way through what seems like a massive blur.

There is no doubt that I have been let down badly, by those who should have protected me, supported me and helped me, both personally and by those who work in the system. I feel alone angry …

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Goodbye to negative feelings

21 Jun

This is the first time in a long time that I have had so many negative feelings, brought on by so much negativity going on around me. What I was going to write about today I will write about tomorrow.

My job today is to turn those negative feelings around, so that I can concentrate on the positive aspects to my day. My Cerebral Palsy doesn’t seem to be bothering me. I’m not sure why …

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