How I feel today

I had my journal all planned out, then I woke up and my day started to go pear shaped, so I’ll publish that journal tomorrow. We tend to rely on a network of people who support us through our life and although we don’t equate most of those people or see them as a support, I believe they still are.

Those people are our Doctors, Hairdressers, Dentists, Opticians, anyone who looks after us, any one who allows us to live our life without too many problems, or if we have a problem, for them to …

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30 Oct, 2010

My childhood struggles

I feel it’s important I write about my emotional childhood struggles, growing up. They seem completely relevant now. When I was a child I found it very difficult to shift bad thoughts. I didn’t understand why. I didn’t know how to move my thinking and I failed as many times as I tried.

Although as children we don’t always understand our feelings or how to identify what we feel, living in a negative environment doesn’t help. I carried all the hallmarks of depression, being insecure …

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29 Oct, 2010

All about our subconscious

The subconscious is a powerful tool. It’s not something we are consciously aware of, but it’s there and we need to continue to make ourselves aware. It’s the tool that runs our life behind the scenes.

Sadly, it’s not equipped to distinguish between truth and non-truths. It accepts what it’s told and directs those thoughts and reasons accordingly. Those are then worked “into the fabric of our lives …

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28 Oct, 2010

Understanding the past

We know that current behaviour emulates what we have learned from our past, which is why it is even more difficult to make changes in the present.

Having an open mind and looking at the bigger picture on some of our experiences will help us to understand those experiences better. It’s also important to take note of how the past shapes us …

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27 Oct, 2010

Working through the past

In my previous blog, I wrote about taking responsibility for our past so that we can move on and look to our future, but like many things in life, in reality it’s never that simple or easy to do.

I start this blog by outlining some of the things that should help us understand a little more about possible explanations and thoughts about the past and how we can change learned unhelpful bad …

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26 Oct, 2010

Seratonin & sleep

Something inspirational:

How many of us have problems maintaining a good quality sleep, along with good sleep patterns? That could be a problem relating to stress, but could also be because our serotonin levels are lower than they should be.

In times of stress the body needs to produce more of it. We need to increase foods that contain the amino acid L-tryptophan, which boosts serotonin levels, reduce anxiety and bring about calm …

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25 Oct, 2010

Taking responsibility

Responsibility is about understanding our lives without the need to rely on or try to please others to do it. And where others have wronged us, we must still take responsibility. No one else can put our lives back on track, we must do that for ourselves.

We apportion a lot of what happens to us on our past, particularly around parents and siblings, but it doesn’t help …

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24 Oct, 2010

The uncertainties of illness

In the last couple of days I have been ill. I tend to go through phases where I stay well for a few weeks, but then go through illness blindly, because I have no idea what I deal with and how bad it will be.

Usually when I think I’m home and dry, I find I’m back again in the throws of illness again. Where other people recover in two days, it will take me four. I never really know what’s around the …

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23 Oct, 2010

The ties that bind

I find it sad that I was 46 before I found out I had cerebral palsy, and also that it wasn’t a freak of nature or a mistake by a midwife that caused my injury. It was a mistake by the specialist looking after my mum, leaving her too long and letting her get into distress after my twin was born.

Would my life be any different now without cerebral palsy? I’m not sure I can answer that question because that wasn’t the life I had. I seem to go through phases where I’m grieving for the loss …

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22 Oct, 2010