Reflecting on 2019

It’s that time of year again when I get to reflect on my blog. Now with a published book also behind me that has taken three and a half years to complete, I am completely at ease with everything.

For me to be able to contain my thoughts growing up over a disability I didn’t know I had until I was 46, the book has given me closure in a way my blog never could. I am thankful I have been given the opportunity …

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31 Dec, 2019

Keep your thoughts moving

As a child I was never far away from my thoughts. Even though I would often retreat, I didn’t ignore my thoughts. Ignoring my thoughts would have put me in a worse emotional and mental space: they would have cut me off from my life.

It is important we deal with our  thoughts so that we can focus on staying physically present and keep our thoughts moving, so that we don’t ignore or hide from ourselves. We must reflect and talk about …

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30 Dec, 2019

Signs that mum approves

With just under a week to go and with advanced copies of the book now in my possession, the day I received them will be forever etched in my memory.

The morning I received the books, I had a sign early on that mum was with me and that she approves the book. Sitting at the kitchen table the kitchen lights started to flicker for a few seconds, a sure sign …

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27 Dec, 2019

Emotional Neglect

For those of us who aren’t familiar with the terminology, ‘Emotional Neglect,’ is a parent’s failure to respond to a child’s emotional needs and is the opposite of abuse and mistreatment.

Where abuse and mistreatment are parental acts, emotional neglect is when a parent fails to act. As my case has shown, it is only through internal dialogue that we come to understand that although our emotions …

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26 Dec, 2019

Reflecting at Christmas

It’s that time of year again, a time for me to reflect. I am again deep in thought and I turn to my autism diagnosis, which I found out about in January, although it seems a lot longer and my accomplishments this year with the book. The book has catapulted me into a different thinking and I’m okay with it, because it needed to happen.

Although I’ve been working on the book for three and a half years, I started putting it together in May of this year. It is an open and honest account of my experiences and life. It explains my journey through my …

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24 Dec, 2019

Salt of the Earth

Being the salt of the earth is something we should all be striving for, but not everyone is. Basic, honest and good values should be something we all aspire to, something we must be. On the whole people are good, they are trustworthy, honest and reliable, they are ‘the salt of the earth.’

In some respects, the world is constantly improving. Science is helping put an end to many diseases, but we’re still not getting it right. We’re not improving ourselves. We may be ahead and have scientific …

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23 Dec, 2019

My emotional reactions

I hate that autism means I have little natural animation to my smile that I show little or no emotional reaction through facial expressions to situations. I hate that I wasn’t told I had autism, I hate that over the years, I have continually been misjudged and misjudged and still I continue to struggle.

I know what happiness, excitement, surprise, anger, fear, confusion and sadness looks like, but I am void of those emotions. I have little natural expression of my emotions. I hate that. I hate how autism …

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22 Dec, 2019

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