A break from the norm

On Saturday morning I posted my blog as usual, by Saturday afternoon I was off line and I felt panicked. I am now pleased The CP Diary is back on line.

With no break in blogs for the last 8+ years, missing a day on my website, I was gutted. You could say it was ‘a break from the norm’ but for me it was the most stressful time, because …

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12 Jun, 2018

A time for mourning

Mourning isn’t just something we do when we lose a loved one. Mourning is also for something that happens to us, something that we need to come to understand. It’s for something we need to work through, for us to come to terms with, or something we need to accept, whichever comes first.

There were days, particularly in the early days when I first acquired a diagnosis on my disability, when what was done to me felt heavy. I needed time to mourn for the emotional loss and support I …

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9 Jun, 2018

Holding a grudge

Although ‘no one goes go to school to be a parent’ and we’ve probably all heard that saying a thousand times growing up, it puts children at a disadvantage. That however our parents, parent we’re supposed to be okay with it.

It’s not okay because our lives are shaped by how our parents parent us, with us eventually holding a grudge against them for all their wrongdoings. Although the analogy is correct, the deed isn’t …

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8 Jun, 2018

Goodnight beautiful bird

While out for a walk the other day, I came across an injured pigeon that looked to have been clipped by a car and was left injured on the pavement at the side of the road.

The pigeon was still breathing and although injured I didn’t really know how bad his injuries were, but I held on to hope that he would survive. I tried to move his wing so that he was more comfortable …

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6 Jun, 2018

Getting to grips with anxiety

My mind isn’t settled. It comes on the back of having to continually deal with anxiety through my brain impairment. There seems to be no reprise.

It is because my emotions are impaired that I have a permanent traffic jam in my head. And although I appreciate it’s the symptoms I must treat, that is difficult because I already have a …

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5 Jun, 2018

Why not me

As a child growing up with a disability I didn’t know I had, that included emotional and physical difficulties, it’s remarkable I never once said, why me. It’s as though I had surmised that it was okay to be me, even with my issues and my disability.

I also didn’t seem worried about any one’s opinion. What others thought of me was immaterial. Perhaps my spiritual beliefs, even as a child were already part of that mindset. I’d already seen too much to know that I didn’t need to make what other people thought of me, my issue.

But having …

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2 Jun, 2018