Hiding Behind a Mask

It is because I live with anxiety that I have chosen not to hide behind a mask. As a child I wanted to talk about things. It is the only way I know to feel better about things. It lightens the load.

I’m probably not the norm. Generally, we may hide behind our imperfections, our emotions, because we’re not comfortable in our own skin, but for anyone hiding, it means they’re hiding from themselves …

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3 Mar, 2021

Judged and Misunderstood

It’s been 10 years since Susan Boyle appeared on Britain’s Got Talent, and wowed global audiences. In January 2021 she was interviewed for Entertainment.

Since Susan’s first appearance she’s gone on to sell millions of records worldwide. In 2012 she was diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome and says she feels she continues to be judged and misunderstood, by people …

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28 Feb, 2021

Finding My Voice

‘For those trying to find their voice in a world where they have to speak louder, just so they can be heard’ – Ilana Estelle

When I found out I had cerebral palsy, I wanted to do something positive for the first time. I needed to get to grips with and explore my disability for the first time. It wasn’t a decision taken lightly, but it was …

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15 Feb, 2021

Personal Quest

As a child, I never thought of it or saw my disability as a personal quest. And although I was angry and needed to know what was wrong with me, I became aware from a young age, finding out would totally be out of reach.

Growing up, my non-understanding of my disability and getting to know my disability, and my symptoms would be fated, to take myself down a road that gave me understanding of my disability and my …

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10 Feb, 2021

Managing Covid-19 and Autism

Covid-19 isn’t something you fight against. With Autism (Asperger’s), just trying to get my head around the fact that the world has it and it’s a life and death scenario, means I’m already mentally and emotionally struggling.

There are days when I wake up and I have a wave of anxiety come across me, then there’s the odd day when I wake up and I’m feeling slightly more positive and I cope, primarily because I’ve had a good night’s …

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7 Feb, 2021

Covid-19 and Mental Health

I don’t have a problem with the pandemic, I have a problem with the UK Government’s handling, which is adding to mental health problems in young adults and children, which the media are addressing, but other groups not being discussed are also struggling with mental health issues.

People with physical and mental disabilities are being totally overlooked. There is no mention of how we may cope, or if we are, What about us? What about other adults with mental health struggles, such as Bipolar …

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29 Jan, 2021

My Challenging Life

I didn’t have many wants or needs as a child in the material sense, but I did want to know why I had a bad leg and a bad foot and that inquisitiveness never went away.

It is natural for any child to want to talk, even more so when that child deals with a mild disability and although I have my writing to help me understand and talk about my challenges, they don’t replace my …

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26 Jan, 2021

NO Rose Coloured Spectacles

I have never looked on, or looked back on my childhood or disability, with rose coloured spectacles. It wasn’t that kind of childhood.

There were too many issues around a disability I didn’t know I had, and not being aware of what my disability was, or what it entailed around my presenting co-existing medical conditions and having to …

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21 Jan, 2021

Taking small steps

Taking small steps is important if we are going to change the way we see our lives, if our lives are going to change. Growing up, not knowing about my disability, it would take me 46 years to take that small step.

It’s not that I wouldn’t have wanted to take that first step, but our circumstances may often dictate what we can and can’t do. We may often be aware of what those small steps are, but those steps although we’re …

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14 Jan, 2021