Things are definitely settling down a lot more. The problems that seemed so vast, seem a lot smaller now. Losing my father some 10 weeks ago has left me with a completely different feeling about things and the feeling that things have been left unfinished.
I know that when he was this side of life, things were enormously difficult. It’s not realistic for any of us to believe we can put everything right with our loved ones. I know one thing for sure, there were lots I wanted changing that never would be and lots of things that weren’t right that should have been put right.
I’m probably not the only one that will see or feel these things and although I am moving on, that part of my life is incomplete. My issues feel as though they’re stuck in a time capsule, which this side of life can never be changed; unless I find a way of perceiving those issues differently.