I’ve had two foot operations, acute appendicitis, fallen down the stairs at the age of 9 and ended up in hospital with a black eye and nearly lapsed into a coma and through all of that I used to think that I had a high pain threshold.
That’s not the case at all. What it simply means is that when I hurt myself I feel the pain more than someone without heightened sensory issues. To be able to tolerate that I have a higher pain threshold.
Every time I have something that I have no understanding or knowledge about around my neurological impairments, I go back to my original thoughts about why I’m here again and why I’m having to work things out for the first time.
To be honest I’m not always completely comfortable with the concept of having to come to terms with something new again that I should have known about as a child. I work things through, so it becomes the new normal for me, so I can find a place for it to fit without me getting cross.
The flip side to that of course, is that I try to look at any new experiences in a more positive light. That I have my site and without my experiences I couldn’t bring clarity or understanding to my life or my blogs.
That our experiences are as they are and others must reconcile for themselves and accept where they could or should have done things differently.