Finding out late in your 40’s that you have cerebral palsy isn’t the same as finding out at the age of 2 to 3 years old.
When we’re diagnosed with something as a child we have our lives ahead of us to come to understand and adapt, to be able to deal with the condition and that helps us find an acceptance, even if we can’t fully come to terms with it.
I knew something was wrong, but because it was late I was beginning to unconsciously reconcile that I may never get to know. I’d heard about cerebral palsy but wasn’t sure whether I had mild cerebral palsy symptoms. But as quickly as I thought about that, I dismissed it also.
Never knowing what I had and having to wait to find out, meant it would go on to take me years longer to adapt, when I eventually did find out. Truth be told, I was more concerned about the lack of interest.
When we show we’re interested, we show we care. That mattered more.