Autism and communication

On my struggle days I hate autism with a passion, but it’s still a gift. Every day as I write, my words come easily, but trying to find the words when I am speaking to people, is near to impossible. My brain doesn’t work.

Because I have and deal with autism, where it matters, or I have something I want to say that’s important, I struggle to find the words or tell my story in order, based on how the experience happened.

When speaking to someone on the phone, it feels easier when I close my eyes. That helps me focus and allows me to speak coherently. Without being able to close my eyes, I can’t concentrate on what I’m saying, or find the right or appropriate words.

Being autistic, means the world around me is continually overstimulating and I have to stop that. Autism doesn’t make for an easy time, made even harder when everyday we struggle to fit in.

Closing my eyes cuts down on visual sensory input and being a conceptual-thinker it helps me get out what I want to say a little easier, and with more fluidity.

25 Jan, 2020

4 thoughts on “Autism and communication

  1. It must be very frustrating for you to say what you want to say and then because of autism, lose the words. It is important others understand your limitations and help you work to your abilities.

    I am sure there are those who will want to help and do just that.

    1. Yes, thank you. I’m almost embarrassed at the things I struggle with. Most of those things are basic and elementary. Some of the stuff you learn in school.

      I agree. There are kind people who do understand. It still doesn’t take away my embarrassment. I need to take the onus off me.

      My disability isn’t about me anymore.

  2. Yes, I have a hard time having conversations with people. It stems from my parents making me extremely neurotic about every little thing.

    They made me feel guilty about pretty much everything. I always had to struggle, watching what I said to avoid getting into trouble. It gets extremely frustrating when you’re trying to talk to people, but you can’t find the right words to say.

    I’m sure that is why I find it so much easier to chat with people online, rather than dealing with them directly. It would be great not to have to deal with this issue, as it gets very lonely after a while.

    1. Thanks Randy. Yes, I get you… I had that also with my father walking behind me telling me to pick my foot up and stop dragging my leg.

      When family continue to nag, or insist, it’s easy to understand why others would become neurotic. That said, these things aren’t about us.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.