It’s true that our formative years don’t always prepare us for the life we have yet to come, if we haven’t had the support; but through maturity and emotional growth we adapt into adulthood.
My sensory issues are part of the equation and compound my problem. Some of the bigger issues, which would seem pretty straightforward to someone else, blow up ten fold and make what I have to deal with bigger. It’s easy for me to become overwhelmed and totally unprepared when it comes to moving forward.
When it comes to the smaller more mundane every day issues I’m fine, but through sensory impairments, the bigger issues have the potential to exacerbate and change how I see and interpret the world and that makes what I deal with very scary.
Depending on what the issue is, the issue can leave me slightly panicked, particularly if I’m given a fait accompli and there is no general discussion about the issue. Even though the issue may not consciously bother me during the day, if it isn’t resolved by the time I sleep, it wakes me, overwhelms me and won’t go until I deal with it.
As a child, I struggled to get rid of bad thoughts. Looking back now I can see that my sensory issues were always part of that equation. Sensory issues that are part of the Cerebral Palsy scenario, are something I understand now.