It’s true that our formative years don’t always prepare us for the life we have yet to come, particularly if we haven’t had the support, but through maturity and emotional growth, I believe we can adapt.
My sensory processing disorder (“SPD”) compound my problem. Some of the bigger issues, which seem pretty straightforward to someone else, blow up 3 to 5 times more and make what I deal with look and feel bigger. It is easy for me to become overwhelmed and totally unprepared.
When it comes to the smaller more mundane every day issues I’m fine, but SPD changes how I see and interpret the world and that makes what I deal with scary. Depending on what the issue is, without a resolve I can feel panicked, particularly if I have no resolve.
Even though the issue may not seem to bother me during the day, if something is lurking about in my unconscious, it can wake me up and overwhelm me. On top of SPD, as a child, I also struggled to deal with bad thoughts.
Looking back, I can see my sensory issues were always part of that equation and although that’s not something I can change, it’s right that I know.