When we finally find out we have something, but have never known I believe we are sometimes protected. We don’t worry about it or think about it. Life carries on.
Ignorance is bliss as they say. It’s only when we come to understand years on what it is we have been dealing with all those years that we are no longer protected. Our new understanding so late on can be scary.
The last Consultant I went to see about my Cerebral Palsy was when I was 25. At the time, I started The CP Diary I was looking through some paperwork and I came across a letter in my possession, outlining the conversation at that meeting where it was confirmed that I had mild Scoliosis due to the difference in leg length and my Cerebral Palsy.
I wasn’t fully made aware of the conversation that day, because my father initiated the meeting, took the reins and nothing was discussed when we left, but that if I had been part of the conversation that day I would have understood the diagnosis.
It would go on to take me many years to know that I had been officially diagnosed with Scoliosis in that meeting. To this day, I am still coming to terms with the fact that I had been diagnosed all those years ago, never really having known.
Not knowing I believe has protected me for all these years, until now.