Blanking something out doesn’t mean the thing we have blanked out didn’t happen. Sadly, we spend a lifetime blanking experiences and conversations out, so we don’t have to remember as we continue to live in denial over those things.
I have always seen things as they are and how I know them to be. I remember circumstances when they happen, in the same way I remember conversations and that’s because my senses are even more heightened because of my neurological disorder. Conversations could have taken place 20 years ago and I will still remember those conversations as if they took place today.
Unfortunately, blanking out experiences will never release us from the initial experience. As those experiences continue to reside in our unconscious, at some point, we will still have to go back in and deal with them. I suspect when we hit a bend in the road, when we begin to emotionally struggle, the issues we’ve blanked will bring back the experiences, we’ve chosen to bury.
I haven’t chosen to blank out the issues that involved other people’s decisions, particularly around my physical and emotional issues. Instead I have chosen to deal with them. Yes, those were painful times, not only because of my struggles, but also because my environment didn’t lend itself to a happy childhood.
I could have quite happily blanked out those experiences, but I’d still be dealing with those experiences now. I believe the universe although it can’t always help us at that time we need the help, the universe is aware we struggle and will try to help where it can; but others must be instrumental and receptive to change.
It’s important to talk about our issues and not blank them out, as if they didn’t exist. Sadly, issues will always come back in new circumstances, further down the line.