When I begin to look at all my stressors (and we all have them) I go back to my father’s terminal illness.
It’s not so much the illness I’m struggling with. I tend to resign myself to circumstances if there’s nothing I can do to change the outcome, but looking at the outcome of the chemotherapy treatment, it just isn’t sitting comfortably with me.
Some of the side effects have been:
- A blood clot;
- Heart failure;
- Loss of appetite;
- Weight loss
Personally, I would rather lose someone early than go through the trauma of seeing that person and their family struggle. If chemotherapy wasn’t so aggressive with all of it’s side effects, it would not only be easier to accept it as a choice, but it would also be easier in supporting that person’s choice.
It’s important that Consultants are more open about the effects of chemotherapy, so that patients are more informed about their choices. It’s always the patients choice, but I often wonder whether patients feel that chemotherapy literally is their only choice.
Chemotherapy doesn’t always give us that and although this is my belief, seeing my father struggle in this way, has been my most painful experience.