It becomes a revelation when you come to understand something you thought you would never understand but you do; it’s also cathartic, if a hard pill to swallow.
I also think it makes it easier when we understand, because it helps us draw a line under our understanding, even if we can’t change anything. But I would rather live with knowing that I understand the whole picture of something, than to have to find understanding, and still never get to that place.
It’s frustrating when you have to continue to play out your experiences, trying to work through interpretations of conversations and what they mean. It doesn’t make what’s done right, or make those accountable any less accountable, but it does help with how we feel about the issues, allowing us to emotionally move on.
At least knowing the bigger picture, means we can potentially fill more of the pieces to the jigsaw. My writing and working through my experiences over the last 7+ years has brought me some closure in this area of my life.
*Happy Thanksgiving to all my American friends.*