My thoughts about anxiety are never far away. Being a parent myself, I find it hard to equate that my anxiety as a child was completely overlooked and could have been dealt with as I had reached out many times. Although I didn’t know the bad thoughts I had as a child were from anxiety, it is hard to imagine now years on that my life could have been made easier.
As the anxiety I deal with is down to my disability, I must continue to find ways to manage it. I still struggle with the concept of having had worked blindly, the deceit and other people’s judgments. Those bother me more than the anxiety itself. But it is not being equipped to help myself that reinforced my struggles that I find difficult to come to terms with.
The younger we are, with help the easier it is easier to adjust to our circumstances. As children we find ways through. But I know that without internalising everything, my emotions and anxiety would have been worse.
Even though my thoughts are more centered now, without my understanding, it would have taken me longer to come through the other end.