Over the years, my senses have compensated for the lack of conscious awareness of feeling, arising from extensive damage to my Cerebral Cortex, brought about through a stroke, to the area of the brain that deals with emotions and is the reason I have Cerebral Palsy.
Because I lack emotional awareness on all levels, my senses are heightened and that helps me work out how other people feel and what they’re thinking. It’s become my lifeline and that helps me connect with life, people and the outside world. It’s a necessity for me. Reading situations with clarity also helps me panic less.
When I am able to impart that information to others, it also gives awareness for them in what they’re dealing with and although I see that as helpful, it can make others annoyed when I reach a conclusion they’re not prepared for, don’t like or don’t agree with, because they’re not a position to deal with it and that’s always difficult.
Through my heightened senses, my explanation is often met with disapproval and irritation, until disapproval turns into approval and that part is far from easy.