I’m having a little bit of a downer on myself today. I seem to have to deal with something every day. I talked in one of my previous journals about the support network we build around us. The last few days of stress, have tested me resolve greatly.
In an ideal world we would have no stress, but the majority of my stress comes from extended family stuff. It never seems to be one particular problem, but problems that somehow come from nowhere. But through all issues, I always try and look for lessons.
The lessons that help me grow emotionally and teach me how to do things better. It doesn’t matter how negative the situation is that I’m looking at, I will always try and find the hidden message, the lessons I’m supposed to learn.
I have always taken the view that it’s important to have people in our lives who are positive. Over the years I have cut friends down to size, particularly the ones who chose not to support me when my mother was terminally ill, or those who abandoned me when they fell out with someone I was close to.
I think that has been one of the biggest issue I’ve had to deal with and cutting out those people in my life has in effect given me more peace, but every now and again reality sets in and I wonder how life got me to this place.
What I deal with rests heavily sometimes.