My mind doesn’t seem to be far away from my disability. Sadly, anyone who deals with a disability may always be exposed, until disability becomes an accepted part of society, but it is getting better.
When anyone with a disability is cared for, the stress and responsibility is usually taken away from that person and placed on the person responsible for their care. When it comes to disability it seems we’re exposed not only by those who should care for us, but by others who are aware of our struggles and simply choose not to help.
I remember struggling with PE (physical education) and speaking to my Games Teacher about why I couldn’t do her particular class, in that instance it was the ‘high jump.’ But because my teacher didn’t stop to question my difficulties, I was continually exposed; that if couldn’t do Games, I needed a sick note from my doctor.
Having already spoken to my mum on numerous occasions about Games, she always said ‘no’ to opting out. It’s sickening because had the school have known about my disability, I would have been excused citing balance, co-ordination and muscle strength difficulties, as the reason.
I also remember going on a family vacation and taking a portable step machine with me, so that I could continue with my exercises. I had no reason to believe that I wouldn’t get better, so I lived with hope. Sadly, I spent years holding on to that belief, whilst those who knew I had Cerebral Palsy were watching me torment myself and still, they chose not to say anything.
It’s the nature of our disability that continues to expose us, particularly in society. We’re still not accepted like able-bodied people are. It’s sad because disability should be seen as a different ‘normal’ but it’s still not.