I know that the realisation that I could have researched my birth notes many years ago, has left me with a lot of uncertainty, a closing door that could have given me the answers, acceptance or closure on what I know now to be Cerebral Palsy.
I cannot change where I am, or cannot change what might have been, I can only go forward and redress the balance on where I go from here. A year ago I had an MRI scan, I got a diagnosis. It’s also more than I had 2 years ago. Perhaps it’s time for me to move my thoughts forward with where I am now and live in the moment instead of looking back.
I know that looking back hurts me, frustrates me, saddens me and angers me. It also changes my feelings towards those who should have done something to help and didn’t. It clouds my judgment.
Instead I will choose to move forward and will put things in place.