Feeling good about writing

I never really associated my writing with autism, or saw it as an autism trait, or a gift. Until I started my diary, I never had any interests and never finished anything. I would start things and not finish them.

Through my blog and for the first time, I bring my experiences to life. I talk about my experiences around a disability I didn’t know I had. My blog helps with my disability, it also helps with my anxiety.

My blog, centred around my mental health allows me to think about and bring clarity to my experiences, to my life. Writing about my struggles, for the first time brings understanding in what has been a traumatic and confusing life.

It also helps others understand what they deal with. My writing makes me feel good and to know that I’m not alone. Where an obsession could spill over and single me out, I take time for other things.

I’m doing something I love that makes me feel better. Having impaired emotions, breaks the cycle of it turning into an obsession. It’s a feel-good factor. Writing makes me feel better, it empowers me to want to write more, to do and feel better.

My blog brings clarity where I didn’t have clarity, and understanding where there was none. Through my writing, most of my issues are resolved.

Even if my enthusiasm were to seem like an obsession, I would never stop doing something that makes me, and others feel better.

19 Jul, 2019

2 thoughts on “Feeling good about writing

  1. There are too many labels that people place on each other, which is exactly why there are so many problems in the world.

    Just because people like to write, they try to label it as an obsession, which probably translates to the fact that they don’t understand it and aren’t good at it.

    My biggest issue with writing, has been that I never had any privacy as a child and was constantly chastised if I dared to write anything about what was really going on. My mother was the one who seemed obsessed with my writing. She made me paranoid about it to the point where I stopped writing at all.

    Your writing has helped me out tremendously, which is why I have always been so appreciative about it. You write about issues that I’m dealing with at that time, which helps me find a way to work through it.

    There are a lot of things I should be writing about myself, but what I realize I need a secure place to put some of it, seeing as people don’t always need to read everything I write.

    I may also need to come up with a pen name, seeing as there are many things that I’m not proud of, since I’ve made a lot of mistakes along the way and hurt a lot of people in ways that I can’t make amends for.

    I guess I will just have to start doing a lot of writing and sort it out later. Needless to say, I didn’t follow my dreams of becoming a great writer, like Stephen King.

    1. That’s probably true for everything Randy. Just getting some of your thoughts on paper for yourself would be a good start.

      I do think that given your childhood and your parentage, you have very little to feel bad or guilty about. As you say, you’ve made mistakes, you’ve hurt people, but others must understand your life before they pass judgment on you.

      I was a nightmare child. I was angry most of the time and every now and again my kind side would appear. But what you read through my blog and my responses, is how I really am, underneath the anger. That has never changed.

      You don’t have to be a Stephen King Randy. All I know is that if society, family and the world came together, you would have had less people stand in judgment and you would have coped better.

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