Feeling on my own

I am on my own, because I had no emotional support. When I look back at my life and the trauma I’ve had to deal with, it almost seems inevitable.

I come so far then it hits me that this is where I am and although I know I couldn’t do anything to change what happened, I get angry at what feels like an injustice. When that happens, I take consolation in how far I’ve come.

The CP Diary wouldn’t exist if it weren’t for the life I’ve had. It has given me a focus and an opportunity to see and think differently about my experiences, for others also.

27 May, 2013

8 thoughts on “Feeling on my own

  1. You’ve come so far from the past and even though it has affected you this way, you’re not alone. You have done beautifully despite what you have been through.

    The CP diary has helped all of us, but writing for the Diary I think has helped you the most. The fact that you’re helping others has also helped you.

    Giving of ourselves is something we should all do and you’re setting a great example.

  2. It’s always good to be thankful for where we are today. You have a loving family and with the site it gives so much to you and to us.

    1. Yes they are. I am hoping in time this all gets easier. Having made a start through writing about my experiences, for the first time I feel it will.

  3. I completely understand that feeling of being on your own emotionally. I felt that way this morning before visiting this site.

    You can take comfort in the fact that you have broadened your horizons despite your negative experiences in life. Some people wallow in anger and self pity forever.

    So now you are making a positive difference in the lives of people you don’t even know. What an awesome statement that is. You must receive gratification and consolation from that personal achievement alone.

    What else can you ask of yourself?

    1. Thanks Tim. What wonderful sentiments. Now when you put it like that you’re right. I can ask no more of myself.

      I would like to find a place that doesn’t hurt me, but allows me to accept and move on from the trauma. Through my writing that is what I want to do.

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