My mind isn’t settled. It comes on the back of having to continually deal with anxiety. There seems to be no reprise.
It is because my emotions are impaired that I have a permanent traffic jam in my head. And although I appreciate it’s the symptoms I must treat, that is difficult because I already have a predisposition to deal with before I start the process and that impairs my thinking even further.
As a child I never equated my emotional struggles and what I was presenting was anxiety. I also didn’t understand or equate that I would never be free of anxiety because of my particular brain damage, or that I would have to find a way of dealing with it because I don’t fit into other people’s normal.
Although I am okay and have come to accept that, those close to me find it difficult to fit into my normal. Getting to grips with it has been hard because I didn’t know I had anxiety.
Getting to grips with something I didn’t know I had, meant I also wouldn’t have the tools to move my anxiety away, but through Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, I hope to find ways that will help.