I always try to work through and understand what I deal with. Learning more about the fact that I have autism, helps me understand myself, but that only works if others want to understand me also. Yesterday I spent most of the day watching experts talk about autism on ‘YouTube.’
Because there is little understanding about the different degrees of autism and how we may present, it’s easy for others to judge us. On our part because we deal with autism and all we want is support, for others to care and for them to work on their understanding, for us to be understood so that we can live our lives and fit into our relationships moderately successfully.
Whilst we spend a lifetime working us out it doesn’t give others the right to behave badly because they choose not to understand.
Me finding out about cerebral palsy and bringing closure on that diagnosis at the age of 46 was always going to be the catalyst and open door for me having to understand the neurological side to the condition.
But and I go back to this, society needs to be open, caring and transparent about people with disabilities, particularly when it comes to disabilities that aren’t always obvious, as my case shows. Autism has many facets, ranging from mild to moderate to severe.
All of that said, there is a positive side to autism. Many of us find we have a gift. I appreciate having the condition, because it allows me to write, to do what I do with my website, but society must work harder at bringing people with mental illness together, to help families who need help just to function.
People like myself remind the world that mental disability is never that far away and that it is very much a thing. Over the years and to my cost, I know too well that autism isn’t something that can easily be ignored.
Personally, I hate how the uncertainties and mental confusion that come with the condition, make me feel.