Any negative issues I deal with reinforce my insecurities around cerebral palsy. The energy around me presents more negativity, which has a spiral effect that reinforces my having to deal with a disability as a child, with no emotional support.
It is common for us to subconsciously hold on to thoughts that reinforce issues as far back as a child. I see the issues clearly now, I deal with those positively, but it’s hard to let those issues go, when no one is accepting responsibility.
Although they don’t interfere with me making positive decisions, they can reinforce negativity on others issues I’ve had to deal with over the years.
What’s clear is I need to create and be responsible for my own happiness. It is my condition, as a child that was never embraced or spoken about, that was allowed to lay dormant for years, that I see as negative. I need to reinforce and see those issues as positive now.
I need to work on some more of my issues, so that past issues don’t act as a gentle reminder and aren’t reinforced every time I have something to deal with.