I know that any negative issues I deal with reinforce my own insecurities and those are centred around certain aspects of my past. The energy around us presents more negativity that has a spiral effect and that reinforces my issues even more.
That subconsciously I am holding on to thoughts that reinforce my beliefs as far back as a child. I see the issues clearly. Perhaps because I can see the issues I can separate them so that they don’t interfere with my daily life, but they do reinforce negativity on some of the things I’ve had to deal with over the years, particularly if I’m struggling to deal with something that isn’t going right.
I know that I need to create and be responsible for my own happiness, instead of subconsciously living my past all over again. I know the negativity surrounding my disability and lack of emotional support is the reason why I still have those negative thoughts. My condition as a child was never embraced or spoken about, so it continually lay dormant.
I need to work on myself a little more so that I can resolve past issues, so they’re not reinforced every time I get to deal with or think about something.