I know that any negative issues I deal with reinforce my own insecurities and those are centred around certain aspects of my past. The energy around me presents more negativity that has a spiral effect, reinforcing my issues even more.
Subconsciously I am holding on to thoughts from as far back as a child that reinforce my beliefs. I see the issues clearly. Perhaps because I can see them I can separate myself from them so that they don’t interfere with my daily life, but they do reinforce negativity on some of the things I’ve had to deal with over the years, particularly if I’m struggling to deal with something that isn’t going right.
I know that I need to create and be responsible for my own happiness, instead of subconsciously living certain aspects of my past all over again. I know the negativity surrounding my disability and lack of emotional support in childhood is the reason why I still have those negative thoughts.
I need to work on myself a little more so that I can resolve those issues, so they’re not reinforced every time I get to deal with or think about something.