Insecurities & reinforcements

Any negative issues I deal with reinforce my insecurities around cerebral palsy. The energy around me presents more negativity, which has a spiral effect that reinforces my having to deal with a disability as a child, with no emotional support.

It is common for us to subconsciously hold on to thoughts that reinforce issues as far back as a child. I see the issues clearly now, I deal with those positively, but it’s hard to let those issues go, when no one is accepting responsibility.

Although they don’t interfere with me making positive decisions, they can reinforce negativity on others issues I’ve had to deal with over the years.

What’s clear is I need to create and be responsible for my own happiness. It is my condition, as a child that was never embraced or spoken about, that was allowed to lay dormant for years, that I see as negative. I need to reinforce and see those issues as positive now.

I need to work on some more of my issues, so that past issues don’t act as a gentle reminder and aren’t reinforced every time I have something to deal with.

28 Jan, 2012

6 thoughts on “Insecurities & reinforcements

  1. It does seem that we tend to go back to the past, when things come up that we have to deal with. I do it a lot myself.

    I had the support as a child and wish that you had. Sorry! People deal with things differently. Some get it and deal with it and some don’t, especially parents. Also if your not trained in a medical profession of some kind it is harder to grasp things I’ve discovered from working with parents of medically fragile parents and my own family. Something I think should be easy that’s second nature to me, isn’t to others. I have to learn to deal with these parents that don’t know anything and it brings me back down to earth.

    Keep doing what you’re doing. You handle things so well.

    1. It’s enough Lisa that you wish I had support as a child. I am definitely going to continue doing what I’m doing.

      Thank you for the compliment. That helps.

  2. I can definitely understand what it’s like to have to live with those old tapes constantly repeating themselves in your head. It has taken me a long time to realize when they’re playing and what I can do to change those thought patterns.

    You have helped me to be able to deal so much better with them which I greatly appreciate. I can only hope that I can do the same for you so you won’t have to deal with them when they repeat for you!

    1. Thanks Randy. They’re really just there when I have to deal with anything negative. Most of the time I can forget about them.

      I am pleased I have been a support to you. Being a friend is a support. Thank you.

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