It was never intentioned

When my life began to unfold in front of me as a small child, I was consciously aware that my experiences were far from positive. I also realised and needed to understand, but thought I may never come to understand what exactly I had been dealing with.

If you were to ask me then, whether it would have been my intention to write about my experiences all those years ago, the answer would have been no. My intentions came later, when on an unconscious level, a window of opportunity arose, my circumstances changed and I found out I had Cerebral Palsy.

My blogs are my explanations, of how I got to this place and of my experiences. I couldn’t change what had gone, I had to change my thinking on what had gone. Changing my thinking means I am able to change the process, so I can write about my experiences.

10 Jul, 2014

6 thoughts on “It was never intentioned

  1. Well, I think you’ve done a very good job of it so far. Looking forward to your future posts.

    I think as children, some of us just know what we will do as an adult. I was 8 years old when I decided to become a nurse. I changed my mind several times as I finished high school and started college.

    I started in cosmetology and almost completed that but hurt my back and had to quit, so I decided to bite the bullet and start nursing school but I had to wait a year due to classes being full.

    During that year I took my degree as a secretary and got my diploma. Then I started and completed nursing school, but after that I still wasn’t sure that was what I wanted to do, so I tried graphic design but didn’t finish it.

    I became a full fledged nurse and haven’t looked back until a year or so ago when I decided I was tired of nursing. So I’ve had my childhood dream of becoming a nurse fulfilled and am ready for something else.

    If I had been asked as a child where I would be as an adult I don’t think I would have answered where I’m at now.

    1. Thanks Lisa. I never really thought about what I wanted to do when I was grown up, but given the environment I grew up in, I knew unconsciously it would take a lot of effort on my part for me to come through my childhood unscathed without writing about my experiences. I just had to wait for the right time.

      I am pleased things were easier for you and that you went into a job that you knew you wanted to do from 8 years old.

  2. I think you have discovered more than just writing about Cerebral Palsy. You invite your readers to explore life through the eyes of your mind and you challenge people to think beyond the chains of their confinement.

    It was never intended for me to come upon this site, but I’m glad I did.

  3. Well, it turned out to be a very good thing that you decided to end up writing about your experiences! It seems like it was a whole different world just a couple of generations ago in terms of how children were treated.

    Life didn’t seem very fair at the time but I learned how to survive which is so different than actually living! I learned how to dissociate at a very early age from the real world which cost me so much later on in my life.

    I didn’t know how to reconnect with the real world and the people in it. I’ve had to make the choice on working on this issue because there are people in my life who need me to be present like my daughter.

    Hopefully I can continue to stay grounded in the current time and make the best of what time I do have left!

    1. Yes thanks Randy. I agree with you, it was a whole different world a couple of generations ago. Not really sure parents of our generation knew how to be parents in the true sense. Through my writing I have learned how to deal with and be more productive in my life.

      I hope you will continue to stay grounded in your own life, so you can spend time with your daughter.

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