As a child growing up with a disability that I didn’t know I had, I was happy to me. There were things I wanted to change, such as understanding what exactly what was wrong and what my symptoms were.
I didn’t like the fact that I had no working muscle tone on my left side because children in the school playground would stare. I was angry, because my issues were being ignored and I didn’t like the fact that pointing my toes was difficult and with a shortening on my left side, and with no working muscle, I couldn’t pick my leg up, so I would drag my leg around.
I was angry, but I wasn’t jealous. I must have been aware, that feelings of resentment, hostility or bitterness, eats away at you until it can no longer be contained. For those who have a predisposition to looking over their shoulder at what someone else has, that they don’t have, or haven’t been able to achieve, things will never work out.
Whilst I understand why there is jealousy, in the spiritual context, we’re all the same. We must work at our own lives and change what we need to change. There is nothing to stop anyone from changing course and changing their lives at any time. We’re not born jealous, it’s something we acquire over time.
A lot of how we are stems from our childhood. If our parents have a chip, or an extended family member with a chip, it would be easy for their jealousy to feed back into the family dynamics. Money is a big issue and is often the catalyst for how jealousy starts, particularly in families.
Where jealousy consists of more than one emotion, such as resentment, anger, helplessness or inadequacy, it will take longer to pull the jealousy back. But you have to remember that without spiraling into a life of jealousy, your life will work out better.